i'm collecting precious moments. these moments mean everything in the universe to me. they are the times i spend with my friends, times we'll never see again. i lock them in my heart and hold them tight to make sure they won't ever faid away. days have come when we are now separated; time has taken us away from each other and i'm desperate to see days when we're together again. i keep these fears to myself and i let them hurt me. they terrify me. they torcher me. i don't know what i'll do without my friends. they're my family. if not for them i'd be lying in a padded room somewhere trying to end my life, holding my breath for as long as i can waiting for death to come. they are everything to me; and now here we are seperated from each other as our lives have taken a bad turn. When we'll see each other again we do not know. i feel as if the world is slowly falling apart, piece by piece. i don't want to be without them; i don't know what i'll do. i feel as though i'll be lost forever. where do i go? where do i turn? "to the stars, Oz. to the stars"